A tribute to When i Forget
A Tribute to When I Forget
In moments of forgetting, I am my own thinker, my own warrior. My mind becomes a potent weapon, a force to be reckoned with.
I assign blame, I point fingers, I gather facts and data, weaving a compelling narrative that resonates, at least within the confines of my own mind.
I perceive my truths as absolute, envisioning potential realities that become my personal gospel.
I meticulously plan, immersing myself in the world of planners and scientific data to validate my designs.
I run and run, leaving fragments of my essence behind. Nkiruka nisiga. My body whispers, "Enough," as it surrenders to exhaustion.
Each morning arrives as a burden, like tossing a heavy load. The world outside reflects this heavy burden in a million different ways.
The sun burns, the rain irritates, and the night feels like a bed of thorns.
In my forgetfulness, life becomes a linear progression, marked by a relentless counting of moments. "Oh, intelligent self," I muse. "Through experience, I have gained knowledge."
The enchanting magic, the ethereal feelings fade away. I wake, nourish, cleanse, assume responsibility, and then sleep.
In retrospect, the magic in my forgetfulness is like when you realize that you are light. But how do you know that you are? You know you are because you are surrounded by darkness. In the midst of my forgetfulness, I can only see what I can perceive. What I fail to realize is that I have dived to the bottom of the ocean. It is so dark down there that I forget I have a strong rope attached to my higher self, who is at the top of the shore with a better view of the entire ocean. She is guiding me through the rope, showing me the way, and my only job is to follow when she says right, left, forward, or stand still. I forget this when I think I need to be at the top with her, which would ruin the game for me. The magic remains when I stay at the bottom, playing the game without necessarily being at the top. The time will come when I need to re-emerge with her, and that is when I will drop this earthly vessel. But for now, I am enjoying being a pretty good diver.
I hope this message finds you with an open heart to receive.
